I told my 5 years old son I was a loser and he thought that was a joke, because in his eyes and heart, his Dad is a hero, a super hero.
In last 2 years. I spent lots of time and energy to teach him, talk to him and play with him. One day I realized he is copying me, almost everything, good or bad, because he is proud of me. That makes me think about my life once again. What kind of example am I setting for him? To benefit my family and my lovely son, I decide to rework my life once again and I promise myself I am going to do my best this time…
My Mom is a very good trainer and I was one of top students in my class all the way up to grade 6. During the year I was 13, I moved to a different part of the city I lived in and entered one of the top schools and live in school village without looking after by my parents. “Kids were smarter in a better school” is the excuse I keep using even until today. During my middle school and high school years (up to grade 12), I was never a top student anymore and only maintained myself in the first 25% of my class academically. I didn’t feel anything was wrong because I have the excuse.
During the year of turning 19, I was luckily sent to Canada by my parents to study in a developed country. On the date I landed in Toronto, Ontario, I decided to set up my life goal for the very first time. Then I changed it because I was not able to pass the TOEFL (Test Of English as a Foreign Language). I had to stay away from Business major and registered myself to Mathematics in University of Waterloo (one of the best schools in North America on Mathematics at that time), because “academically I was still doing ok”, I told myself. The excuse I used at that time was “I like numbers” – as I always do in my life up to today.
I first registered in Computer Science without knowing what it is about. The only reason I got in was because it was one of the top ranked programs in University of Waterloo. First 2 years did not go well, I was not able to maintain an average of 60% (50% is a pass grade) for computer major courses, so I was forced to be switched to Actuarial Science and Statistics (still in Math, but different major) in a hurry. Working in Actuarial Science, students need to complete total 9 fairly hard public exams with competitors around the world. I managed to complete 2 and half of them and graduated from University of Waterloo with a mathematics degree, however I had to give up again as I was having a hard time to find a job related to Actuary by the end of year 2003…
Time flied and I am 33 years old today. My family is doing just ok with me and my wife earning mid-level income in Canada; however I gave up some many times in my life and had to call myself a loser. I have an entrepreneur type of mindset, but never understand how to get started.
Things are changed since I start reading lots of books in last 10 months and I learned so much great information from the great books I read and did a lot of brainstorming and finally decided to take my very last chance to rework my life to a better one. At the same time, I realize how many people I know or I do not know very well are struggling with same issues in their lives, but do not want to keep the regression with their lifelong journey. Therefore, I decided to use this blog to keep a track record of my learning experience. To myself and also to my readers, everybody come together to change lives and change the world!
10:13am on Jan 22, 2013